My Blog

Meander through these honest stories of grief/loss, anger, hope, and transformation. Maybe you'll see your reflection and hope will appear where you hadn't noticed her before.

O Come, O Come

Between working from home, basic hygiene, nourishment needs, relational needs, the holidays, oh...being pregnant, a one-year old, volunteering…yeah, I don’t seem to have time for my writing luxury these days. I have missed you all! Thanks for being patient and...

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I don’t want to go that deep.

I feel like I really liked Elsa up until about two weeks ago. Recently, things have been challenging. Not so much because of the sleeping, the eating, or even the crawling…but because of the needing. She seems to fancy little else than me.  I can’t make reason to it,...

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Summertime!

August here and I have not posted since June! This points to nothing other than a full summer of activity, family, friends, and visitors. Since my last post we have survived the highest  heat for any July on record; began eating from our CSA box (never a dull...

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Labyrinth

(Written during our family retreat vacation) I just returned from walking the Labyrinth here on the grounds of The Springs. Walking this ancient practice is meant to be a journey, spiritual and physical, to the center…the Cross of Christ. Emptying oneself of ambition...

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Space: Cyber, Holy, or Otherwise

Utterly refreshing. Oh, how vacating regular life can offer such a great space for re-creation. This was our first time getting away since Elsa was born into our lives. We were tucked away in some rolling meadows of southern Indiana without cell service, internet, or...

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Death by Death

Arriving, I drop immediately to my knees, instinctively brushing away the earth from carved stone.  Outlining every word with my fingers I remember our baby boy. Re-membering our family…the entirety therein.  We are all there together. All members.Grass,...

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Stare

Another week swept on by, summer creeping in. My love for the outdoors surging again as I stroll under green life bursting from branches high. The beauty from outside fills me within. Writing calls, but this time of year I find the lucidity of my mind waning as I long...

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That Woman: Part Two

  So, let’s spend some more time with that woman. Since I am feeling a bit less guarded in her presence I am ready to understand her a bit more. Truth bringing peace, as it often does. I hope that as you continue to read about her you may catch a greater vision...

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Featured Posts

Noticing Transformational Moments: Part 1

Deep, soulful transformation that actually changes your life is not elusive or magical. It is work, don’t get me wrong. But it is also simple and right in front of you. With the soul, there are no formulas, but there are ways to drink from the well of transformation...
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Our Son Would Turn 5 Years Old Today

Five years ago I gave birth to a baby boy but the only cries in that delivery room were from those of us grieving his silence. He was stillborn in my sixth month due to a severe case of Amniotic Band Syndrome. Almost 3 kids later, his death, at times, can feel like a...
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